I Am Nothing

12Jul09

It’s really interesting how things have been moving, but it all kinda revolved around that point God has been making… it’s never about me…

I plucked up the courage reluctantly to battle with the traffic police for the third time 4 days back after 2 failed attempts. What’s demoralising is that I am not even mentioning about the practical test, but the BASIC THEORY. As cocky as I was, conferring myself the “One-Time Pass” title, just like what my Sec2 Chinese Teacher Wu Mei Xian said, “San Chi OK (3 times Ok)”, and yes indeed.

Apparantly before the test, I could not feel that surge of confidence which I had during my first attempt. I was kinda stuck at home and I even missed my e-trial test which was essential in helping me to pass on my third attempt. As I was travelling, I was randomly conversing with God about the test and all of a sudden, God spoke and showed me my heart in taking the test… so instead of spending the precious little time left to mug, I had to settle my heart with God, in making sure I’m doing it with the right motive… now I know why I failed twice…

I did the test cautiously, or rather humbily and there was just this phobia of ending the test. After scruitinizing every single answer, I was ready for the truth but just before the click, I felt this urge from God to check again and specifically at 2 questions. The original answers looked justifiable but as I read the question again, images of me studying my book flashed through and by Faith, I changed it according to the vague images I had. I had no intention of becoming a BTT flop… but I guess I had to trust Him…

And when you trust, He blesses! =)

Been going through a lot mentally lately, it’s easy to confuse what’s right and wrong hence it’s important to have something as a reference, to tell you clearly where’s North and where’s South. I thank God for the most personal book he has blessed us with…

DMM was great and We had fun praising Jesus (Thank you Rui Zong!)! It’s such a privilege to be in the DMM because whenever we are together, there’s just this alignment of vision and passion for Jesus! Our Lovely Leader, Bing Liang taught about Shepherding and it was so applicable to our Group’s situation!

If you love your Sheep…
1) You will be Faithful
2) You will be Responsible
a) Be Persistent
b) You will take Ownership
3) You will work with the Holy Spirit
4) You will Believe in Them

Gosh, I really got to see beyond the weaknesses and help my Sheep to see their potential in God because they can grow and do so much in Him!

Congratuations Rui Zong! Finally!

DAVIEST! – Faithfilled and Courageous!
It’s such a privilege and joy to see someone committing his/her life to Jesus, and this is definitely why we are in this Ministry.. remind us…

It was an awesome experience when I was just wandering about in town, spending time with God after the Water Baptism… explored certain places and I will definitely go again! Discovering more ways of spending time with God, doing this again real soon!

I was kinda late and had to rush home in a cab… Woah the time with the taxi driver was great, hearing his sharing, and most importantly, HE WAS A S.H.E Fan! LOL! Imagine a 50 year-old uncle having a few of S.H.E albums in his Taxi. It’s always nice hearing people’s story, their life experiences and hearing him sharing sparkled this word “Compassion”.

This lovely S.H.E Fan uncle is a typical chinese man, being the sole breadwinner in his family, supporting 2 kids. Through his sharing, his family is surviving barely on his income but yet, he would often help others with whatever he had, by ferrying people who are worst-off for free… It was a very genuine sharing and I felt his compassion for the needy and poor. “No matter how bad your situation is, there will be people who are worst off…” – in chinese lah

we need to gather the lost, He is the answer

i need the light

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